cel·i·ba·cy ˈseləbəsē/ noun

the state of abstaining from marriage and sexual relations.

For a long time I thought I was celibate. I am not. The reason I abstained from sexual relations is my desire for intimacy, the desire for someone wanting to hear your voice and touch you for reasons that can't simply be reduced to sexual gratification.

I don't want to swipe right, or write a resumé on some online dating site, because I don't want to date, partake in the anonymous dance. I want the opposite.

What if the person you want to have this closeness with does not reciprocate? Back into the cycle? Rinse and repeat? Or move on?

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